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gimme a cheesy smile;

Today was the bomb, kay. First woke up late and missed the bus and ended up late but no demerits, luckily.

Then, PE was hysterical enough and we're just kicking the ball in all directions except for the goalpost. We just kept laughing cause amanda tan kept getting hit at the most sensitive areas and when people wanted to tackle? take? the ball away from me they always end up kicking my leg and not the ball. When we had to do the center ball thingy it was always venus and I fighting. PE was plain crazy.

The rest of the day was tolerable enough and canoeing was :D highlight of the day for me, at least, minus the muscleaches on my left arm only. But I can feel the muscles growing already so, no worries (:

Paddled 5km! (: but I heard the sec1s, i.e. beginners like me only did 4km. Is it supposed to be a good thing or what. And yeash! Because of the rain my shoes and socks are wet and I won't be surprised if I've got fungus growing between my toes by tomorrow morning. And well, my bag has moudly moudly stuff on it too cause its always wet and never ever dried properly. I can't be a housewife.

I saw doraemon sticks and was very very tempted to buy but I controlled, but I guess there is still this gigantic possibility that tomorrow when I walk pass the shop, I'll end up buying. There goes perseverance.

This whole post is fiction and descriptions are just plain exaggerations. So please do not take those lines at heart. Say buhbye to me blog and say hihi to me bio test tmr :(

I smell a fail.

I'm at a lost now, and I really have no idea as to how I can explain this to you properly because every time I focus my attention onto you and you alone, I cannot concentrate and I lose all my courage. But is courage even supposed to be a factor in this? Quite frankly, I have no idea.

What's this supposed to mean to you, and to me? Why do I always get the idea that you have no idea, absolutely no idea what you are pursuing and what you are trying to pursue? Why do I always feel like I'm the person cleaning after you? I'm not sick of it, I'm just questioning myself. But then again, should I even be questioning my motives in helping you? Again, I haven't any clue.

I don't believe in escaping a problem, because experience has proved to me that escaping from a problem will just aggravate the situation. But how? You can't possibly provide an answer for me, can't you?

You have no idea, absolutely no idea how things work. And me explaining things to you just makes the whole thing so much more complicated and several degrees harder for me to deal with.

It disturbs me more than anything to think about you and all the things you expect out of me. It disturbs me when I think of your smugness and you looking down and judging, criticizing other people when sometimes, you're just like them. It disturbs me when people make unnecessary and insensitive comments about what I'm doing for you. It disturbs me when you appear to be just so insensitive and inconsiderate and so blind. And it disturbs me most, when I think of how you probably wouldn't think that I was writing about you when you see this because you are so blinded by your smugness.

Why am I even doing this? What am I trying to prove? And why do I even bother to try to explain to you time and again about how this is so not about you even though you initiated tis grand project which you can't handle on your own.

Saying 'thanks' repeatedly doesn't help one bit. Maybe being a tad, just a tad more sensitive and more sensible on your side would be all I need, all I ever need from you in my lifetime. Just...don't be so blinded by dreams, they're neither realistic nor practical. Think about how you can make this a reality, without having to rely so much on other people. Understand that while you are probably having hell of a time thinking about how we are behind time, I am struggling here to keep up with a schedule that's not even happening.

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:/ I feel so bad even writing this. What is wrong with me?

Perfect for Valentines Day

Verse 1:
If my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
When I'm blind to my way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Chorus:
Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise; glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.

Verse 2:
Present suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

green eyes;

Short day, today. I woke up really late and I didn't go for a. math. in the morning. I shall go do some work later before I go to bed.

Hm. Really pensive at the moment and trying to stop making lousy decisions for myself. I don't want to regret doing certain things/making certain choices. Sigh. Life's a big knot to untie. And I'm only sixteen, imagine what I'll be like when I hit 32. I'd rather not think about it.

Issues at the moment (less sensitive ones): Higher Chinese or Chinese and Sub. Chem or Pure Chem. Both are equally hard decisions to make. Think think think! (And pray too)

It's almost the end of the weekend, and I don't want to start my week7 off with a bad foot, so I shall go do some work now. And I will study hard, promise.

have a. math consultation tomorrow morn :( must wake up early. and what's wrong with my ez-link card?! i just topped up yesterday and today i was robbed of half the money inside :(

did i write that i went to see gz on tuesday? (: its was so cool. but haha, juniors! must focus! i think last time when i was sec2 in gz i didn't even dare to question my seniors' orders. veh tired. ate a lot of mars bars. and i went for 45min of canoeing today! and when coach asked me whether i wanted to paddle i said i was going to crezawards.

actually i wanted to paddle on k, but haha late! then namitha and i thought that crezawards started only at 7.30 but it started at 7! then both of us were very thirsty after training; she paddled while i ran, then we wanted to go cheers but in the end cause namitha wanted to shower so... only i went. then i ran like mad woman to school.

i ran a lot this week lorh. run until i because jellyoherie already. haha! especially yesterday, i betbetbet i hit like 6km or smth. and i'm not kidding.

vehveh tired. i shall mug. bio test on monday :( how! i only finished one chap.

suggest a title for me?

I was talking to songsim the other day and he asked me whether I was going to go back to geco someday. Andand I saw lydia's tag and I felt very sad.

And now I'm listening to feitian. Okay, so Cherie has decided, she shall join a chinese orchestra someday (: I just can't live without it. It being, chinese music.

very ugly tan.

Okay, this' so weird but I'm tanned but I'm tanned unevenly. My left leg and my left hand tanner than my right arm and leg which is very very ugly cause I don't look human. Suddenly a performing arts cca sounds so much better.

Haha okay I'm vain but whatever. I woke up today screaming to my mum about my tan because yesterday night it wasn't so obvious because everywhere was red.

I owe the library many many books and many many fines which kind of sucks because if I accumulate 6$ worth of fines I can't borrow anymore books and because I'm running out of good books to read at home, I either pay the fines or buy more books but because I'm quite broke I can't do both.

And I've got a ton of homework which I haven't started doing yet and it's Sunday already which means I'll probably have to sleep late, again.

And I haven't watched my weekend movie yet and I want to find 'Sophie Scholl' and 'The Pianist'. Okay, I've found them at the shop but now I need to buy them.

And my back hurts like idontknowwhat and it feels as though there was a knot in my back which I can't seem to untie and it hurts a lot keyima.

I should probably go and do my homework ><

Mission Impossible;

Made possible (:

I finished two zuowens. All I have to do now is to copy them onto the composition paper and hand it in tomorrow (:

I'm so pleased, because they look good to me. I'm going to aim to finish the Commonwealth Essay Competition essay by tomorrow evening. I shall try (:

Cherie will persevere :D

PERFECTION

Midnight Blues;

It's 12:09 now.

Cherie will persevere. Cherie will persevere. Cherie will persevere. It's twleve already but she will persevere.

Devote yourself to perfection in everything that you do. - The Last Samurai.

That, is my new motto. Perfection. Everything. I shall not rest until I've finished what needs to get done and they will be perfect.

And discipline is the key. Cheers!

Too many minds;

It sucks to have many things to do at the same time, and the worst part of it is that you have all of them due on the same day and at the same time. All the teachers want your best for their subject but the thing is you are only one person. What do you do?

I have a million things to complete and yet I'm doing pointless things that don't and probably won't help me. Why? Why do I always agree to do things that I think I can manage, when in reality, I can't? And I always land myself in the deepest shit.

For one, I was realy enthusiastic about canoeing but being such a loser, I decided to skip cca for so many times because of a mere and probably insignificant rash on my neck. How great is that? Sometimes I really don't understand how I can stand myself and I really marvel at how people can stand me. I'm such a brat.

Next, I promised Rhen that I would deliver the IH literature review and the proposal to Nanyang tomorrow when I know that I have training and I haven't been to any of the four trainings this week which is pissing MsLi off and I know it because it's my responsibility. So why did I promise? And the silliest thing is that I don't even know if I have it with me. How noble am I? Or rather how 'noble' am I?

And the thing about priorities. It's only into the first term of the year and I'm owing so much work. So much work. Well, I don't know what else to say/describe to make my pathetic state known to you.

And well, this is more like a venting ground for me so I guess I will update oherieonion more than augustrush.

Fickle-minded, as usual.

Say hi (:

I'm back! Maybe not for long. I shall blog sometime next time which is I suppose a long long time later but still, I may come back.

So, till then (: